Tuesday, November 28, 2006

how do you solve a problem like Nicole Marie?

I'll be seeing you in
All the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through

In that small cafe
That park across the way
The children's carousel,
the chestnut tree...
The wishing well.

I'll be seeing you in
Every single summer's day
In every thing that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way

I'll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon
But I'll be seeing you.

Arndis is going back to Iceland and I'm sad that another friend from London is leaving. I know so few people, and I'm usually only seeing them when they're coming or going. We split a bottle of wine last night, had some sirius conversation about Lupin's love life and then had ice-cream in Leicester Square. Very nice.

The thing that's been driving me crazy lately is everytime I get into a conversation with one of my friends is a certain Someone comes up, and whoever I'm talking with, they always say: "Go for it!" and I have to explain my reasons why not. They say "You are always promoting confessing your Luv! Go for it!" And then I have to say, oh yes, with my track record, hm, dead, gay and flat out not interested. Well done me. Naturally I can circumvent all my problems by fixating on certain dead actors but that...well that doesn't quite fix it, does it. Not the overarching problem. I have all of you, my lovely friends and family, but as I watch people pairing off all around me, I can't help but get worried. Impatient. Am I going to have to wait forever? Maybe. That's a scary idea. Well, I just won't think about it then. I've had quite enough romantic escapades for a while, thank you very much. That doesn't stop me from hoping though. It's the ultimate nature-vs-nurture problem: will all the influences finally convince me to write that long anguished email? or will the inherent introvert finally win the day?


Laura said...

It's me isn't it? Don't worry, honey, I return your love!

premiere girl said...

Ok, I read your posts the wrong way, downwards, so I have to remember what to commnet on which post. Let's start: Unless this person is Laura, the only other choice you have is to suffer silently. Now, if you just have a little crash, that's fine, you'll get over it. But if you think it's more than this, maybe you could write this nice email.